[ Syaoran finds himself quiet, unable to meet Ann's gaze. ]
I think because it's been so long. . . it's hard. He's waited in that shop for a very long time, waiting for Yuuko-san. Or at least, her reincarnation.
He's talked to me. About the people he liked. But I think he was suffering because of that. But they're dead now. And I think that because of that, he might be scared of grasping that happiness as a human. Because Kimihiro will live for a very long time. Maybe even longer than me. But the people around him, those that he cares about. . . they might die in front of him. And seeing that?
It hurts.
He might want to seek another form of 'happiness' in order to make the pain go away. I saw him crying the other day, Ann. He's suffering. He's suffering so much, and I can't help but feel like I'm a part of the reason he's hurting.
His choice to stay in the shop was a part of a price he paid to get out of a void.
A void that was caused by my sin. He was only in there, forced to make that choice, to pay that price. . . because of me. Because in the end, Kimihiro is still another 'me'.
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I think because it's been so long. . . it's hard. He's waited in that shop for a very long time, waiting for Yuuko-san. Or at least, her reincarnation.
He's talked to me. About the people he liked. But I think he was suffering because of that. But they're dead now. And I think that because of that, he might be scared of grasping that happiness as a human. Because Kimihiro will live for a very long time. Maybe even longer than me. But the people around him, those that he cares about. . . they might die in front of him. And seeing that?
It hurts.
He might want to seek another form of 'happiness' in order to make the pain go away. I saw him crying the other day, Ann. He's suffering. He's suffering so much, and I can't help but feel like I'm a part of the reason he's hurting.
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Why is this your fault...?
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A void that was caused by my sin. He was only in there, forced to make that choice, to pay that price. . . because of me. Because in the end, Kimihiro is still another 'me'.