I think... there's some things that can't be fixed. At least not entirely.
[ He knows that all too well, from experience. ]
And you don't have to, Takamaki-san. That's your choice. The fact that the story that the Witch of Misfortune [ yeah, screw calling her by her true name ] said probably muddled up a lot of things, too, especially given that Akira-san was also...
[ "Dead", he doesn't say, but implies. And to be honest, seeing him come back to life like that made him feel something swirl in the pit of his stomach, conflicted about the act more than the fact that Akira was back... just to simply get punished again.
And it even hurt. It twisted in his chest that his original target was Takumi.
Because he had brought it up during the trial, after all. That because of the intent, they could have been targeting someone else... and then wound up killing Ryuji instead. The entirety of it is all messed up, in the end. He can't help but wonder. ]
Even if you can't forgive him... or what happened during the entirety of the trial. Do you hate him?
That's understandable. After all... [ he says this in a way that shows that it's from experience ] ... he looked and acted very similar to the other Akira-san that you knew. Right?
And I think he was sincere when he comforted me, when I was freaking out about some of my memories. And that he was trying to help. That part was true.
But moving past this... that's impossible. That was probably the biggest lie I told.
[she glances at him.]
I'm sorry, I just wanted to confess that to someone.
It's okay. I won't tell anyone, and I'm always here to talk when you need it, Takamaki-san.
And I think so, too. But... I understand, you know? What it's like. To see someone but it's not really them. And I've been on the other side of that as well, too. So if you ever want to talk about that, or anything at all, really... I'm willing to listen. To help as much as I can.
Kimihiro knows, too. There's actually... [ A pause, as he glances down, reaching towards his chest. ] Myself, and the person most important to me were copied. As clones for a certain man's purpose.
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I'm also aware that in different worlds, it's possible that you might run into someone familiar. Someone that looks like someone that you've met before, but they aren't the same person.
What you should do is a choice that you have to make yourself, Takamaki-san. It's not something that I can tell you to do.
But I can tell you what I did. Even if they looked the same... they were, in the end, different people. So I always treated them as their own separate person. Because that's what they are, you know? It's kind of how you treat me and Kimihiro as different people, right? Even though we share the same existence.
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Is this about what Akira-san was saying earlier?
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I was still, despite everything, trying to pretend this could somehow be fixed but--
[her breath hitches]
... We spent the whole trial for Ryuji's murder talking about him. I can't forgive that. I thought, when I saw him, I could.
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[ He knows that all too well, from experience. ]
And you don't have to, Takamaki-san. That's your choice. The fact that the story that the Witch of Misfortune [ yeah, screw calling her by her true name ] said probably muddled up a lot of things, too, especially given that Akira-san was also...
[ "Dead", he doesn't say, but implies. And to be honest, seeing him come back to life like that made him feel something swirl in the pit of his stomach, conflicted about the act more than the fact that Akira was back... just to simply get punished again.
And it even hurt. It twisted in his chest that his original target was Takumi.
Because he had brought it up during the trial, after all. That because of the intent, they could have been targeting someone else... and then wound up killing Ryuji instead. The entirety of it is all messed up, in the end. He can't help but wonder. ]
Even if you can't forgive him... or what happened during the entirety of the trial. Do you hate him?
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[said instantly.]
But... he's benefiting from a relationship we never built. I know that now.
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And I think he was sincere when he comforted me, when I was freaking out about some of my memories. And that he was trying to help. That part was true.
But moving past this... that's impossible. That was probably the biggest lie I told.
[she glances at him.]
I'm sorry, I just wanted to confess that to someone.
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And I think so, too. But... I understand, you know? What it's like. To see someone but it's not really them. And I've been on the other side of that as well, too. So if you ever want to talk about that, or anything at all, really... I'm willing to listen. To help as much as I can.
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Kimihiro knows, too. There's actually... [ A pause, as he glances down, reaching towards his chest. ] Myself, and the person most important to me were copied. As clones for a certain man's purpose.
[...]
I'm also aware that in different worlds, it's possible that you might run into someone familiar. Someone that looks like someone that you've met before, but they aren't the same person.
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What's the thing I should do?
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But I can tell you what I did. Even if they looked the same... they were, in the end, different people. So I always treated them as their own separate person. Because that's what they are, you know? It's kind of how you treat me and Kimihiro as different people, right? Even though we share the same existence.
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I'd hate him.
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[ He asks that question carefully, tentatively. ]
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I... I don't know. I don't think I do. I don't want to have feelings like that.